The most powerful prayer you can pray!
It was 2004 and I was at a point in my life where I knew big changes were coming. And I felt both inadequate and unprepared to deal with them. And I didn’t know where to turn.
Eventually, I found my way to the Bible. Before that I tried to make sense of things on my own. I tried to reason and then decide what made sense to me. It wasn’t working. I only saw things from my perspective which carried with it a lack of wisdom. I believed in my ability to make sense of things but it wasn’t working.
Consider it pure joy, my brothers and sisters,[a] whenever you face trials of many kinds, 3 because you know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance. 4 Let perseverance finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything. 5 If any of you lacks wisdom, you should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to you. 6 But when you ask, you must believe and not doubt, because the one who doubts is like a wave of the sea, blown and tossed by the wind. 7 That person should not expect to receive anything from the Lord. 8 Such a person is double-minded and unstable in all they do. ~ James 1: 2-8
Stepping Out in Faith
I believed God spoke to me. Not in a voice that I could hear. But delivering guidance with what to do. This was new wisdom for me. “Consider it pure joy…the trials I knew were coming….and God would give generously…”
Somewhere hidden deep in my soul was a desire to speak at my father’s funeral and then again at my mother-in-law’s funeral.
I have suffered from anxiety issues for as long as I can remember. And when something was seen as a performance, my anxiety would go through the roof. My response has been to run. Run away from the piano recital. Run away from the diving board. Those childhood failures had stayed with me through my life. And I was petrified of public speaking.
Then God planted a seed. It was a strong desire. Because God planted it (with no input from people), God would help manifest it through faith.
Now ten years later, I have needed to remind myself to go back there and remember. Dear God…Make me what YOU see me to be. Not to please or try to impress. Not for accomplishment purposes. But to add to this world what you created me to be.
And help me in the business world to manage relationships, money and more in a way that pleases you.