For a while now my strongest prayer to God has been, “Break my heart for what breaks yours.” Believe it comes from my desire to make the most of my life getting away from the day to day but with a focus on what matters most.
After consideration of who is my neighbor (anyone I come in contact with during my day) and what I can do for them, I am overwhelmed with the needs I see in today’s world. And I want God’s lead in my life to direct me where He sees me to be.
God’s way of answering prayers
I like to think I am wiser than God (hard to admit but believe we all have that perspective until brought to our knees) and have an expectation with how He will answer. I also can think I am pretty smart and can rebel authority and knowledge. January 2nd, I told my doctor that I knew I could fight off the flu and didn’t need a flu shot. She encouraged me to get it and I reluctantly agreed. And no, I haven’t gotten the flu.
But I did end up with Bronchitis with 101-degree fevers and a trip to the emergency room. I was not able to fight off what was bringing my down. I was the best hospital patient because of how glad I was to have a place to go that I had confidence they could help me. How fortunate we are in this country. I wasn’t concerned about how long I would wait (which wasn’t long) or anything else. Just appreciative in the confidence I felt in the people who took care of me. And the confidence I had that they could help me return to good health.
What we see on TV
We see people on TV nightly who are suffering. Some just laying quietly on a cot. Isn’t it easy for us to think that is sad but they look OK. As the fever hit my body, I was uncomfortable with ache all over but just laid there. Their experience is on a completely different level and environment than mine. Obviously, I have been sick before. But how quickly we forget when we live lives blessed with good health.
There is so much anger in our society and local communities today over politics, religions, lifestyles, choices people make and our attempts to be right.
I don’t know what the Lord has planned for 2019 for me but will continue to pray this prayer and find where life takes me. I do know it is having a more tender heart for the experiences of others and for me to be quiet and let God lead the way.